what are we?

By Rini -

 

14-7-24

What would they think of us?

Hell I wanna know too, idk what we are


we are but as significant and insignificant as the star dust above and before us




 

22-7-26

I don’t know what we are

The excitement in the air

Is more enticing than the oxygen

 

The weight of social norms,

The need to stay informed

Teaches me everything but,

The question still remains:

 

What are we?

 

Are we friends who know too much

Or are we lovers in the next chapter

Are we in the talking stage leading to something

Or are boring ourselves to death?

 

What are we?

 

Were we connected in our past lives

Or are we so opposed to what consciousness is

Are we debating about movies

Or about basic human rights?

 

What are we?

 

An example of icks in the other gender

Or are we the models of standards

Or are we too young and lost

To be here all alone?

 

What are we?

 

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh what is the meaning of it alllll

What are we on a molecular level

Are we all made out of atoms

Are shadows, dreams and thoughts too?

 

What are we?

 

Are we the 6th mass extinction cause

Are we getting wiped out soon

Or are we suffering

For the next generation to never come true?

 

What are we?

 

Are we too young and too soon

Or are we too old and too late

Or are we just in between

And lost in the labels of it all?

 

What are we?

 

Humans fighting for human rights

On a planet leading to extinction

Caused by the same humans

Greedy for legal tender?

 

What are we?

 

Are we two youngsters in love

In the burning wild world

Are we too young to act

In the needful times of protest?

 

What are we?

What am I?

What are you?

If not us?

 

But fr tho,

What ARE we???

 

Xoxo



hi!! i loved writing this! 

i love existential crises, makes you think life isnt that complicated afterall. we are just carbon based beings in a carbon based rock floating in a vastness unexplained and indescribable to our feeble minds.

life is good!


i did something last week. anorangecloud.com is mine now. (insert villain laughter) muahaha

it was something i wanted for so long and it happened in the spur of a moment with my brother's presence. intense ride, had mini heartattacks working with this. 

in the end, we acheived it!!


have a great september, daily affirmations are the way to go and be.

be safe out there!


thank you for being here,

yours lovingly,

Rini.

yourorangecloud. 





FDD- fifteen day diary

the past 15 days seem like a whole month for the amount of lore in it. 

very excited to announce that i now own my very own domain :D

all that lore but nothing to share online :(

i was reading my old posts and it felt nice to have a space online forever with my memories etched in it. like a indestructible window to my life i can visit anytime. its not exactly nostalgia but something warmer like that without the cold feeling of accepting i cant return to it. 

even though right now, i dont like how it is in my life, i cant help but think life is good. there are better things out there, there is always a way to make tomorrow a better day. 

ive been playing sudoku these days, playing online is much easier than with pen and paper. sudoku.coach is the way to go. its mostly guesswork, its really fun. 

i do have to learn how to play it properly but for now, its fun guessing <3

have a great september! im already freezing in the cold, stay warm <3

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